Prayer and promise contest poem

Prayer for hope in finding a vein
Promise to quit escaping life pain

Neither truths as selfishness lies
To serve the demon under addictions he lies

Delusional prayers seem never to be answered 
Neither the appetite for dopes escape rapture

Spoiled child cries for shards of crystalline death
To slide in his vein like orgasmic dragons breath

To walk in the promise of a life in peace lived
How can I hide from pain when on the cross he did give

The  challenge not an easy one to live out
But better than dope, a relationship drought

I came out of fear and seeking survival
I found a call to act, to live out revival 

Not to preach at others with distain
To to live a life of testimony a life walking towards pain 

Other center living is what this man taught
Doesn't work with addiction but kicks the demon out

My life is not perfect by any means
I still dream of highs with needle in vein
But a better option afforded through his sacrifice made
Life hard yet peaceful, by his death on cross, for my transgressions paid