Black Mailed

Up until then it was a fine birthday,
I was standing by the doorway,
I t was all good until you wanted to tell
When i heard i turned dead pale,
I got so mad,
I didn't mean for things to go bad
I felt like  bursting with fear
I could not hear the things again
Over and over i wanted to disappear
All those horrible things you recollected,
You let out of those secrets i've protected
Unless i given you what you wanted most, me