The gate

 I have traveled so far
Gone through so many challenges
Brought to this mysterious place
Of which I do not know what lies in side
I was so strongly pulled
by the unparalleled forces of this place
I can feel it's warmth and acceptance
I am not afraid of what's inside
I am ready to accept what has been pulling me here
Then, like always the darkness engulfs me
I am pulled away by a stronger force
I wake up sad, almost crying
I do not remember what it was truly like
I just remember the happiness I felt there  
And a dark shadow is cast over my day
Wishing and hoping for that felling
The felling I know will not come again