all I will ever be

what if what i am is all i will ever be?????

what if this is all there is to life the pinnacle 4 me?

what if i have to live like this.....

with hate deep down inside....

what if i thought the world would trip if it knew the thoughts i hide?

sometimes i hang out all alone...i scare myself sometimes 

the world gets big i feel real small..dont worry i will be just fine....

you study me with your big degrees...dr. feelgood m.d. .....the dope u give
doesnt help at all ....it will never set me free....

what if i scream or if i dream of life outside these walls....what if i
find the nearest bridge and contemplate the fall......

this may not b real to you but it scares the fuck out me...and i have to
live like this my own worst enemy......

life waits for no one and drugs cut life short...what if the judges is
pissed as hell the day i go to court...

what if my mom never has the chance to see her son set free....what if i
were to rule the world and make them pray to me....

would any of this mean a thing 100 years away.....what if i die a marytrs
death.what would this cold world say....

will i ever find that peace that sets my mind at ease...what if what i am
is all i will ever be.