I Forget

Sometimes...
I forget
that you love me...

On days when you
spit fire...and
cause it to rain down
upon me like
a volcanic shower...
scorching me
down to the core
of my very being...
leaving lesions...
and fissures...
in my psyche

Sometimes ...
I forget that
you love me...

When you accuse
me of ....everything
Leaving no stone unturned..
so determined you are
to bury me beneath
your insecurities...

Because you...are the one
with much to hide.
I know because the truth
spills right out of your eyes

There reflection hollow and cold
prying to find my weak spots

or glitches in my stoic expression
as you rant and try to find ways
to inject more of your poisonous
notions inside my heart...
Sometimes...
I forget
that you love me.
even when your
arms are around me
surrounding me in your
pseudo-sweetness...
I can not exhale...
because these moments
are too short lived..

You tell me I am your
Number one....
Too bad
I'm not the only one.
As you move about
the cabin...
In your shady haze
of grey...
Sometimes...
I forget that
you love me...
and soon...
I will forget
that I EVER
loved you too.