Recipe for you

Love, joy, regret, guilt makes up that recipe
Hip hop, rap, and everything else I guess.
I come off shy and quiet,
I'm emo,
And I know my parents don't like that.
I'm a cutter
And likes to slice up my own skin.
I like porn only cause it makes me feel better.
I've conditioned myself to be happy.

I wouldn't even know how to mix everything.
Ill just put it all together.
Everything here is me.
I don't want to change anything.
I just want to stay me,
And that's my recipe.