Endless Grief

Fall off the cliff
End this endless grief
My happiness is gone
Life is a heartless thief

It has stolen my innocence
My hope's dwindling
Tomorrow is swimming in obscurity
I am without security

I am a living hazard to my own self
Something to be feared
My mind's on a suicide race
Moving at top gear

Where else can I run to?
Where else can I go?
Its like the worst is coming to me
And its coming slow

They say I'm addicted to the dark
Who is he that hates to smile?
But there are some things you would face
And your craze would be similar to mine

De tasting company in preference to solitude
Arguing with the me within in my lonely world
Maybe I never played it right from the start
Well that's left for You to Judge Dear Lord

Never have I been faithful
Now I guess I'm paying the price
For the careless loveless way I'd lived my life
Sorry for my bluntness too late for lies

Wondering to myself in confusion
Does hades have a peaceful place?
Oblivion,unconsciousness and darkness
Seems to be rosier than this terrible surface

Where faith is tested by pain
Pleasure is nonexistent only pressure
Life is a agonizing journey to death
and poverty oppresses even in the midst of wealth

I express my thoughts in sad words
Maybe it alleviates my grief
It'll only make a sweet poem to some
While my misery remain stiff
 
I've experienced unexplainable anger
I've lived as a haunted soul
I've brought all these upon myself
Now these demons take control

In this purposeful purposelessness
My writing depicts sensible nonsense
And I wish this trying phase will be brief
But from the look of things I'm stuck in an endless grief