Here fading without you... (collab Redbird Raiders (serg))

 

4 O'clock in the morning, getting out of bed walking to the bathroom sink,turning on the faucet washing my face, both hands on the sink staring head down,

taking a breath, taking it deep, hearing your voice next to me laughing and giggling,reminiscing the time we laughed and promising each other we'd stay true till the end,

staring in the mirror visualizing you next to me yelling, laughing, crying, being silly everyday I visualized you next to me, never thought it be you to leave so soon so quickly

walking to edge of the bed sitting down, hands running through my hair grasping, asking myself "why didn't you tell me he was getting his way with you?

The times he use to beat on you, crying for help and no one believed you?

Forced to live this cold world without you--  

It hurts to think, hurts to cry, some days I cry myself to sleep thinking of the memories we shared together...

laying in bed staring at the ceiling still didn't understand why you left, world is full of chaos but didn't have to go out this way, now your heart buried in dust.

I still can picture those empty bottle of pills as it haunts me, how they numbed your pain,taking the blade to your own skin, letting the blood ease the pain, on the floor bleeding slowly,
waiting to die feeling relived letting misery speak thinking you’re doing a good deed.

There you are slowly fading away; but your eyes widen as IT screams through the darkness the fear sets in, demons of the night come rushing in, eyes set on you about to consume
your soul,

fighting through the night till dusk turns to dawn but the acid you popped has taken its toll and now your pain is gone,

never had a chance to say goodbye and tell you how much I cared,
Tonight I will suffer

closing my eyes praying speaking directly towards you
I miss you, I love you, wished I could've protected you but now it’s too late

this isn't the end until we meet again I shall cherish the memories we had locked away, as I close my eyes going to sleep now you’re the star in the night sky watching over me,

To those who feels lonely that think there's no way out, don't give up hope, stand tall and let your voice be heard, don't be the victim no more, let courage comfort your fears and let that give you strength to fight