Only time will tell,

 Its better to be broken
than subjected to their bitter
hold,
and when her beauty
starts to take it's toll
I plead it will be quick
when that lust
finally slits my throat

I hope to false gods
that a non-existing apparition
confuses me into doing something sacrilegious,
and condemning me into a
twisted spirit,

Only then,
will I be so lost
I can be found,
broken down
and completely
turned around...