Playing Pretend

Can I pretend
For even a
Moment,

That you're not
You and I'm not
Me. And that I do
Not mean anything to
You (which could be true).
Can I pretend
For even a
Moment,

That I'm not paranoid
That every other girl
In this hallway is
Looking at you,
Or worse,

They see me looking
At you. And it hurts
So badly. My heart.
It's gone. I hate it. I love
You. I LOVE you. So much.
I love you. I hate it.

I am broken.
And I can't pretend
For even a
Moment,
That I haven't always
Felt this way. This pain.
And I just can't
Keep playing pretend.