Entoxication of a young mind

Being drunk is a relief for me
because i feel angry and hateful for
such idiotic reasons,
but it has an effect that makes me happy
and thats the blank mind when i wake the next day.

People become alcoholics for so many reasons
and situations can also cause it,
but the really truth is because they're afraid of their problems
and they just wanna get rid of them.

I drink because...because i dont
know who i am anymore,
because im scared of the future and the things that ly ahead of me,
but i can fight a group of people by myself.

The truth is that im afraid of myself and what im capabale of
and what i can do to my surroundings and the people in my surroundings,
but i seem to control myself while being entoxicated.

So i leave life while im drunk and hide in the dream world
where no one is anything and anything is everything.
It's the only place that i can escape too anymore...