The Hidden Truth

There’s a story that I must tell.
But it’s wrapped in a shell.
Deep deep inside.
I’ve tried to hide it
but I can’t no longer deny it.
The truth is,
I’ve felt the searing cold silver.
It makes a person forget their own pain.
It’s not right though
It makes me feel like a freak show.
But it’s time the truth has been revealed.
I’m putting down my shield.
So you can see, so you can hear me voice my fears.
There may be tears, In my eyes.
But I’ll try not to cry.
I want to be strong
Even though at times I know I’ll be wrong.
I’ve lied. It makes me want to die inside.
I’m not a fool.
I know that some of the things I do are not what good people do.
I’m not beautiful because in my minds I eye, I have the ugliest personalities.
Nothing about me involves reality.
I never truly let the real me show.
Who knows?
I am the one who tries to help others.
I’m just a failure of a person.