Purple Penis to Purple Rain

I know this will kill me
But willfully I take it on:
Staring down that Hurricane
Wanting it to swallow me whole.
Spinning aroung
In a vortex of ecstasy
I feel I'm in heaven.
I've already taken
Skrewdrivers to the head
And the feeling is
Hitting me all at once.
But a night in this fog
Goes to waste
As I wake up in a daze
Over a pile of vomit of
Unspoken word and unforgiveable actions.
A loss of words trying to explain why
I'm working extra hard
To dig myself out of this hole
Until you hear the crack of these
Overworked bones:
The bones that loudly hum
A sad song of regret,
But instead are wrapped in an ice pack
Generously shared by your cold shoulder.
Loud shame is the motto
And so low I still try to sing a duet.