Right now

As life is often filled with rage
I run away
It's not easy to just turn the page
The simple truth even for today

To the bike, gym or something I deeply regret
I try to alleviate the pain
Most of the time feeling upset
Even during a sunny day I still see just clouds and rain

People who let me down
Things happen out of our control
Often cause me to frown
As life on a daily basis takes it's toll

Nothing at the moment seems right
Another day slowly comes to a end
Emotionally empty again tonight
All I have is more thoughts to defend

The muscles ache from the bike ride
Long overdue and needed to be done
On my trainer inside
Away from the heat and the sun

The eyes often burn for rest
Yet I often refuse to grant it to myself
Even if it is for the best
Constant activity is better for my mental health

Alone I sit on this wooden chair
Hearing the voices of my family outside my door
They are happy just playing over there
Yet all I want to do is more and more