how to deal

how do i deal wit all this pain and hurt?
who do i turn to? when can have a life?

my life is on hold right now can't think cant fly can't breath
i want to breath but there's no air coming in my lungs.
i want to cry but there is no stopping my tears.
i want to love but he is never here

when do i draw the line that this isn't what i want?
how do i leave all my history we had and just pretend it never happened?
when do i?

I love you so much but i feel like I'm breaking! i love you with all my hear but its shattering?
I'm dying i really am who will even notice WHO?

i cant live anymore there's no air there's no love theirs no life