Never Ending

Blade to the wrist
Pills, next to the amber liquid
Hate inside of me
Starting the first slice on my already marred skin
Continuing the self hate I show

Swallowing one capsual after the other
Downing the amber liquid
Fire coursing down my throat
Waiting for the Reaper to come

Veins now filled with my death
Spreading withing the shell of my body
Hoping to find the serenty i've been searching for

Closing my eyes
Taking one last breath

I have finally found my end

Trapped

Gasping for air
Trying to open my swollen eyes

Veins being pumbed with clear liquid
Bringing my dead body back to life
Thrashing and screaming, whimpering for the death i wanted

Stomach being pumped from my doing
Crying unshed tears
Pain taking control of my body
Still waiting for the Reaper to come

Wrists strapped to the bed
White overpowering my senses
Whispered words of love all around me
Why can't I love myself?
When will my body finally give up?