lies

pain
blurring the end and beginnings of reality
here we go one more time
digging' my nails to void brutality
how to expect this to work?
i can't even understand what your saying
yeah, you big jerk
see now look i can't even have a vocab here
you lips move with such time
unfortunately, i just want you blood to smear

i want to scream
to run away
to say this was all a dream
i want to go into more thought
but I'm afraid
afraid of being caught
we all know how it goes
one by one
you can say all the time 'Oh, love grows'
but that's a lie
just like how you mom said your "dog ran away"
their just all being sly

this anger this pain is making me lust
not for sex or for dreams
just simply trust
see we could have avoided this
your screams and your pain
we could have had momentary bliss
now see this is where you screwed up you opened your mouth
i told you not believe me
now you down for the count

my hands around you neck you eyes meet mine
you believed my lie
HA, I'll never be fine
see it's sort of your fault
you broke my sanity
maybe if I'm lucky I'll get off with assault
once last breath as your eyes go dark
maybe i should try to turn back
nahh, you already have a mark

awe don't you cry
it's not your fault
but it is that you lie
you lied to me about this
what else did you do?
who else did you kiss?
what ever, i don't care
this way there won't be any more lies
at least no one YOU can share

don't worry about the mess
I'll clean it up good
it won't make you any less
you've always been so nice
clean and alright to bad i haven't
but it's okay, I'll keep away the mice
see that wasn't so hard
you not even moving
I'll be your eternal guard

i sneak into you bed room
i have no idea why
i mean, I'll be with you soon
i pick the gun out of the bottom drawer
walk back to where you are
this is the place i tore
lay down beside you
put the gun between my lips
this is what i have to do
maybe this will give us bliss

my thought are for another rhyme
I'm thinking of them now
i just wish i had the time
fortunately i don't
i just have to think of a last line
but my brain just won't
i give up and pull the trigger
blood splatters across the floor
the 'white light' gets bigger
my last thought for this life
"i hope i didn't mess up to badly
because you would have made an excellent wife"



(you know, expect the lying)