Personal discovery

To push your self until you break
For acceptance and empty goals
Just be your self and rest for goodness sake
This is for all the damaged souls

My life seems to be just a stat sheet
Nothing more and nothing less
Today for once I can be human as I stare at my feet
I been living like this for sometime I confess

The emotional pain through all these years
Is all coming back to me
Chasing perfection with many fears
Now it is easier to see

Because someone loves me for who I am
She cares about my health
I no longer feel like I need to live like a charging ram
I'm putting this part of me on the shelf

My whole life I have overachieved
No matter how I felt good or bad
That's what life was supposed to be, I believed
Now I understand why my girl friend gets mad

We need to start living for tomorrow
Not just for the moment and the day
I don't want to cause her any sorrow
If I was by 50 already passed away

So it starts right now
The change
Little by little somehow
It's time to rearrange

What is in my mind
Has been drilled right from the start
But in February that's when the stars aligned
When I finally met someone who loved me from the heart

The pressure that often felt like a ton
Has been lifted just now
I just wanted to be the best; friend, family member, boy friend and son
That I could be, but peace of mind many would not allow

At this moment of time I see the light
Took me 24 years to see it with my eyes
All because of someone special tonight
I'm not so sure if she does realize