11-20-12

I just want to cut so deep right now
Walk out into the middle of on coming traffic
The sudden urge to end myself
I miss him so fricken much right now
I ache
So many friends but no one to talk to
No one answering back
What if I die, there will be no one to come to my fall
I don’t know it’s this sudden quake of a puzzle falling apart
I was fine a couple of hours ago
Someone turn the switch off
Black dark evil thoughts are clouding my judgment
It has been a while to be home
A bad comfort zone
Poison me, make me sleep
Shut my mind