What is in the inside

I don't mean to make you mad
Never want to see a day that you are sad
Last night I was wild and out of control
On the phone you had to pay the toll

I'm sorry and I was wrong
I knew all along
What you said was very true
My personal problem is not so new

Please forgive me
Guilt is with in me as you clearly see
I know you care and you will always be there
What I'm doing to myself and to you is not fair

You mean more to me than booze
It's easy to choose
You will be the one I will give it up for
Because there is no one else I love more

I don't want to fight
On any day or night
I just want to see you again
As I sit here writing and thinking with my pen

The idea of drinking my life away
Is never a reality I wanted to stay
Life would not be the same with out you
In you I found something special and true

Tears will my eyes
As I often realize
That I do not ever want to lose you
Tell me if there is anything I could possibly say or do