I don't understand?

Mom why do you hate me, I don't understand why you can't love me.

What have I done? You adopted me you pick me, i could have stayed with pat. I was just a 8year old with a horrible past.

Why? Why make me cry why add on to the pain to the hurt, the scars?

Why not just bury the hate with everything else. Like you bury the thought of my father.
Or what about the rule
The rule what is never said with words but said within your eyes.

The rule of not speaking his name.

I'm not allowed to say his name. Without getting those looks "those looks of disappointment in
me for no such reason"

Just remember
I'm not my father I'm not my mother.

I'm just me just a kid.

Why should I bare this trouble on my shoulders?

I already have more then you would know and understand on them.

I could just run away, I want to trust me. I want to run from it all.
And run from you.