PERIODS

Oh god I hate them
I know when they are coming
I cant run or hide
I can't take the pain away
of what im feeling inside
dreading the day
and the week before
as i know whats in store
blood
clots
hatred
anger
pain

its all the same
its coming again...

i cant get out
Have to stay in
or explain to a man
whats going on within

cant go to work - but  I have too
so every 10 minutes have to run to  the loo
as i know Im going to seep right through
theres nothing i can do

embarrassment to have to answer
where are you off too now
can hardly say  im bleeding on this chair you  COW

the blood the clots
they just drop

on the floor
or the seat
In the street
down my legs
on my feet
through my trousers they seep
on the train
get back to work
feel the shame
as i see the stain
that you all saw
threw the back of of my draws
i cant take anymore

tired
need to sleep
but right there and then
just for 20 minutes to feel alright again
anemic im shaking
theres nothing i can do
except.......

the dreaded words i heard for 20 years
a hysterectomy
but it brings me back to this
A reminder

no kids
not ever
I know
but even so
i dont want to admit
i dont want to let go
of that HOPE...

so sit through this pain and embarrassment all over again...