Numb

I cried for you for 5 minutes.
My heart burned for 3..
I can easily see, that I am far too
Used to this betrayel.
I have become numb to all you say.
I've become so numb, that all you said
doesn't even linger in my mind.
It doesn't hurt like I thought it would.
It simply sits in my mind
And I think about what could've gone wrong.
My heart doesn't scream like it
Has in the past. Now it just bleeds.
I know it should hurt,
That I should be upset. But how can I,
When I feel nothing?
How can it hurt, when I am so used to it?
I hear people say being numb isn't a good thing.
But honestly, I'd much rather want to
Be numb, than to be in
Tears and heartache any day..