Back at the Start

I'm back at the start again, back at rock bottom. My life is in shambles, my heart is in pain. The beast of my happiness has surely been slain. I sit in my chair, at home, and at school. I think to myself, what can I do? Do I end it all now, take care of the pain? I swear, I swear, I'm going insane. There's nothing to stop my emotional fall. I fall from the pinnacle, so massive, so tall.  And now at the bottom, in sadness and dust, I sit here and cower, waiting to rust.