Suicide note

Why I left is no question
I didn't want to be here any more
Yes I was loved and lost and loved again
I was adored for my work and my kind heart
I was adored for the things I lead you to believe
But I was truly never understood
My mind was far more open than you thought
Sex, blood, torture and murder
Ran most of my thoughts
And I know none of them would understand
Which Is part of the reason I left
I grew lonely as a mind of one and one only never really finding the true match
I grew cold from the fake smiles and the fake laughs
I drifted from the happy little girl I was
To this flawed monsterious  inflated ego girl who doesn't even know who she is
I left because I wasn't really a fit for this body
I wasn't  a fit for this society
I wasn't fit for any of you