been scarred forever

I have so much pain on a daily basis
I feel the need to give myself more
so instead of spilling my precious blood
I light a match
and burn it up
burn my wrists with tiny matches
little red dots made by ashes
its so hot
it burns so well
the feeling it burns like hell
but I like this pain makes me feel worse
makes me cry and hate
just like everyone else hates me
for breaking promises
never to hurt myself
but they don't know what i go through
none of them know
so I sit in the bathroom
and light another match...
here I go....