to live

That one question,
Trust?
Its a big festering wound that wont heal
Tearing at my gut, ripping me apart
Moment to moment, live
Breathe
Blink
Go on
But not move on
I miss the comfort
The love
I miss the safety of life
I’ve been beaten too many times
I thought we built something
A house to live in
A life to live
I wont give up
I wont forgive
I wont condone
I will fight
I will live
Love such a fragile thing
A glass half empty
Balancing on the edge
Ready to spill over
Crash to the ground and bleed
I hate these feelings
Uncontrollable
I wont forget
And I wont condone
But I will fight
And I will love forever
I will live
Even in all this confusion
In the pain
In the darkness
I will always be here
Even if I’m standing alone
I will always love you
I will live