Hell Came Tonight

I'm cold and I feel out of place
I don't wanna wake up tomorrow.
There is silence among chatter
I can't speak, I bow my head
Letting all dignity go
But I can't push it away
The uncomfortable misplaced feeling
Do you wanna die? .. Yes
But it's like when you're sad in public
You cannot speak, you cannot scream
You sit theree and you cry
Every tear goes unnoticed.
For the first time in a long time
I am reminded.
I feel like an outcast among normies
Is this what I wanted?
Farthest from it, I wish I died a long time ago
So I never sat here tonight...
Cryng with nowhere's else to go.
Every time I try and run away from him
I look around and realize
There's no one else there.
I'm stuck, alone among friends.
Wow how father down can I go without
reaching hell?
God is cruel. I never let my tongue slip
I don't wanna love anymore.
Why be so cruel to me, what lesson can I
learn?
Just slit my throat tonight
Let me say goodbye
I've never had someone hurt me
Break my heart
Tear me to pieces
Just like this he has.
Thank you. You've scared me for a nice life.
I'll never be good enough
Never beautiful nor wise
Just sadness and despair
I guess it's all my fault I'm this way
I can't be normal and happy and perky and
perfect and slutty
I wish I was..anyone in this world but this
girl typing I wish I could stop crying.
I'm here till I die and he never sees
How much he kills me each day.