Beating Pains of Love

Im laying here,and its my fault
Over & over im ranting about why we just fought
But I continue to let him do this to me
Beat me until im bloody and to weak to run free
But he said SORRY,so its alright
My deepest fear is believing that its ok
Unknown reasons as to why LOVE makes me stay
But for some,My dumb ass got it tatted on my brain
         He loves me....
So the next time it hurts less
A couple more blows,my hearts beating out my chest
But its ok,he promised not to hit me anymore
I know,he knows thru all this im inlove and stuck
So theres no way im walking out the door
But something wants me to leave
I feel it in my gut...

Still i couldnt tell this nigga goodbye,yall dont know
I can see the love in his eyes
I stayed & dealt with the busted lips,bruises,and black eyes
Even tho i knew this time it went to far
We was on our way to E.r when he tried to push me
Outta the car,while driving down the road

I remember all to well,I asked if he wouldnt hit me anymore
Found out i was pregnant and yea it was his
He punched me in the face and repeated bitch im not ready for kids
I tried to womanup and say fuck you this baby is here
And as he raised his fist for that last time,
I prayed real hard cause i knew this battle wasnt mine
But i reached in my purse and pulled my 9
Everything went blank,as i pulled that trigger
No i didnt kill him,but he knew i was done
No more bruises no more pain
No more guilty love having me insane
Today this shyt stops,hit me again..
I promise you wont live to see the Birth of your kid....