worst feeling

jw do you ever get those moment whether seconds, minutes, hours, or days, in which all you can think about is the one person you cant have. The one person that has the power to make you happy or sad, laugh or cry, live another day or crawl up in a ball n hide away. Knowing all this do you wonder why you cant have this person, or why you still love them after everything they have done to you. I dont and i dont think i will in the near future. All i care about is that i love her and when im sad she can make it better, but right now this is what she is doing to me.

i couldnt sleep you were on my mind
nightmare dreams none to kind
i thought about the most beautiful thing
about giving you a weddng ring
but it turned to horror i didnt want to see
that your not in love with me
i know im not good eough dont think i cant see
but you have to know there so much more to me
its not about the abs the arms or good looks
your reading to deep get ur head out of the books
your afarid people will begin to turn on you
and you wouldnt know the first thing to do
because you have never been in a situation like this
you've never been called names or been dissed
but iv lived 12 years hearing this stuff
i can handle it iv never gotten rough
they can think what they want we will walk on by
it doesnt matter what they say when its just you an i
but all this is going to waste cant you see
when you only look at my outside and not within me
i cried last night because i knew it was true
guess ill have to grow abs to be with you
but then ill turn you down and make you see
how it hurts to be judged on your looks like you did to me
not a stab in the back but a lesson for sure
a broken heart thats hard to cure
you wait and see as one day ill shine
then you will say why didnt i make him mine