The Fool's heartbreak 

At night as I lay in bed.
In my mind.
I think of you.
Missing you. 
The girl I've wronged.
Tears fall 
At the memory of the love that is now gone.
Praying and hoping I can take back what I gave done.
My lover says she has moved on.
But my heart in her hand she holds on too.
She squeezes it with every "I hate you "
In her eyes I can't tell if it's true.
Is it hate or is hurt?
I cant tell the difference between the two.
I'd give anything to be with you.
To love you the way I didn't.
To hold you the way you wanted me to.
To be the man you wanted me to be
But no matter what i say. 
To you'll never believe in me.
I'd give my life to show you I miss you.
Hoping in the grave. 
That you'll miss me too. 
what it my love I must do to say.
I love you
and that my " I love you "
Is true..