the beginning of the end

forget how i wasn't there, not when i was needed by you
forget that it's my fault you're not here, still smiling at me
forget the sound of your voice as you told me what you had to do
forget that i didn't hear the anguish that i couldn't see
the things in my mind wont leave me alone
i still remember that you asked for me
how i refused to answer the phone
and it was i who could've helped you see
everyone who hurt you, and all who put you out
knew how much i needed you and all that you could be
i tried so hard not to accuse, to not shout
to hide the tears, because it was them who took you away
who beat you down, made you feel worthless
why couldn't they be the ones to pay?
I lost my only friend, it was i they left a mess
for them it was the beginning, something new  
they didn't cry or even pretend
it was simply a chance to live, without you
but for me it was the end