Judas Me

 My ears pick out his sounds - in the dead of the night
I hide under the covers - out of mind, out of sight

I lay frozen with fear - while preparing myself
To leave my body behind - and put my mind on a shelf

When he passes me by - I rejoice in his wake
I laugh under my breath - for tonight I am safe

But relief turns to guilt with your struggle to be free
For if he did not choose you - he would choose JUDAS me

So I lie to myself - to convince me it's true
That the shadows that dance on the walls are not you

Then I lie once again - my hands cover my ears
I chant over and over - that I don't really hear

The soft fumbling his hands make as he loosens your clothes
Nor the dying sound innocence makes when it goes

Please forgive me my sisters - for what is and will be
and for being so happy - he passed by JUDAS me

I know all of the sounds the disgusting things  make
as he greedily gobbles and he nightly partakes

I hear your soft cries every night in my mind
they play over and over and with each play I find

That the peace of the chaste that I pray comes my way
always comes at a price that is too high to pay

I remember nothing good ever happens to me
cause you pay with your soul so I'll walk Judas free.