What Have You Done?

Why do you always say something and do another?
Why must I wait for you long after you have promised?
What is it you do in your 'spare time'?
Do you know what you are even doing to me?
Do you know that you are creating pain and hatered towards you?
Do you know that all I want to do is smack that stupid self satisfied look off your face?
Do you realize how much of an ass you look like right now?
Do you know how it feels to be tormented?
Do you know why I haven't left you yet?
It is because I still love you.
But you only push me further away.
I don't want to do this anymore.
I want you to leave.
I need you to go.
GO! I need time to think.
You have only made my life harder.
Sadder.
I want you to feel how I feel.
I want you to feel neglected and abused.
I want you to feel like nothing in this world cares for you.
I want you to know the pain you make me feel.
I want you to understand and change your ways.
I need you to change your ways.
I want us to work, but it will never happen.
Until you can fully realize the extent of my sorrow.
I wish this were different.
I wish you were the same as in the begining.
What happened anyway.
What made you click?
One day you were happy.
You wanted to marry me.
And then the next day you wouldn't talk to me.
Then in the months following, all you could do was yell.
I was afraid. You were always angry. Yelling day and night.
It scared me. I wish you could see what I see.
But you are so self obsorbed that you will never see.
See the way I have been brought down by you?
I wish you would come back.
But I know that you won't.
So finally I will say goodbye.
Maybe later we can talk,
But for your sake and mine,
I hope we do not.