Twisted Confusion

Is my fate really sealed
All my secrets now revealed
I have nothing to hide from, no one to shield

My thoughts now flow free
Since DUP has found me
Others can see my inner beauty
And how I am so angry

The choices I have made
I know I shouldn’t trade
To change them now I am very afraid

To trade in my life
Ten years of being his wife
It rips through my heart like a jaded jackknife

My one true love I long to hold
I know it’s not right, myself I do scold
For my heart has been sold
So long I have not controlled

I let my mind and body wander
Now this I must ponder
I can’t control it, my heart just grows fonder

To trade in this life is not only me
To my little boys it would be cruelty
Such a great dad they would not get to see

That is a bond like super glue
One I could not break through
So selfish of me to be so untrue

My days carry on as his wife and their mom
Their daddy will be there when they go to prom
I must remain sane, must remain calm
The fire in my heart burns fierce like napalm

I knew all along this pain would not ease
It is him every day that I yearn to please
I have to stay strong and mend their scraped knees
My secrets locked inside, only DUP holds the keys

One day my twisted confusion will be known
Probably after my babies are grown
I have to remain strong, I am the backbone
Of this life that we share and the one I postpone

Is my fate really sealed
All my secrets now revealed
I have nothing to hide from, no one to shield