The Curse Of An Addict

I Remember Being A Year Old
Running Face First Into My Birthday Cake
 You Made Me
I Remember Being Five
Learning How To Tie My Shoes
You Taught Me...

Sad To Say These Are The Only Happy Memories Of You

I Remember Being Nine,
Crying Begging To Go Home To Mommy
You Were Drunk
And You Were Hurting Me
I Just Didnt Understand

I Remember Being Eleven
Hoping Maybe Daddy Would
Forget About His Girlfriend
He Said Her Name Was Crystal Meth
I Was Overjoyed He Finally Did

And Then I Remember Being Twelve
Praying To God To Set Me Free From You
All I Ever Wanted Was For You To Love Me
Sick Part Is You Did
In All The Wrong Ways
I Remember The Blood...
My Torn Skirt..
The Beer On Your Breath
The Smell Of Meth On Your Clothes

I Spend Sleepless Nights Alone
Wondering Why My Daddy Was So Different
For Fourteen Years Hurting Me Was Your Mission
I Could See It In Your Eyes You Were Truly Sick

I Thought Id Finally Escaped All The Pain
Just To Come Home To My Mother With A Man
Who Turned Her Into An Addict, A True Fiend.
I Found My Mother Hooked On Daddy's Old Flame
Miss Crystal I Said, I See We Meet Again.

My Mother Never Understands Why It Hurts Me So Bad
To See Her Pupils The Size Of Dimes
And Watch Her Run About The House
Yelling That Nothing Is Clean
She Doesnt Understand Thats What
Made Daddy So Mean..
Pointing Her Finger "Ive Told You A Thousand Times!"
Her Favorite Thing To Scream,
If Only My Mother Was Sober
Shed See Its Her Running A Muck, Not Me.
Ive Lived Through Eight Teen Years Now
Surrounded By A Family Of Addicts
And I Have Learned That It Is The Curse Of An Addict;
To Chase What Destroys Them.

It Saddens Me To See That My Efforts Are Futile
Ill Never See My Mother Wear A Sober Smile
It Will Always Be Twitching
Her Tell All Sign Of Being High
With Her Big Pupils And Glassy Eyes.