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Everything seems to be so stagnant these days, so many problems and not enough resolve. I really don't mean to whine it just feels like I have fallen into quicksand. I try so hard to pull myself from the mistakes of my past but the line is easily blurred between what was  yesterday and what is today. The same mistakes over and over again that got me to where I am today practically homeless, owing money that I can't pay, and what seems like no friends. I wish I could have someone to blame this on other than myself, someone to point the finger at for all of my problems instead of having to face the fact that everything could change if I would just change. I want nothing more than to be somebody, to not get stuck in this little town like my parents did. I need a hand, someone to believe in me other than myself, someone to listen to me and encourage me, a shoulder to cry on, a rock. I use to have a person like that but it all just seems like  a hazy memory now, something else I have let fall to pieces because I took it for granted. It has been a big adjustment from having someone to tell everything to being inside of your own head all the time. I have to find a way to be something more than this, just please tell me there is light at the end because I am more than tired of trying to find my way in the dark.