Dirty... Emptiness...

My mind hasn't been in the right place,
I haven't been myself.
I've been playing around,
Doing all this dirty stuff...

I never knew I would become this...
Letting myself be touched by unwanted hands...
Letting them feel on my tits...
The empty feeling... just, no one understands...

They push me on the wall and claim me theirs...
Holding me down and touching all over...
God this isn't fair...
It's just torture...

They force a kiss from me...
Like if restraining me wasn't enough...
It drives me crazy...
But I let them do what they want...

Their mouths reach the parts that aren't worth mentioning...
They tell me to moan... I do so to satisfy their needs...
They like to hear the heavy breathing...
But why do I still feel empty??...

I don't tell anyone of these dirty encounters...
They are my secret to hold from the world...
They aren't soul mates... or lovers...
Just another to try and fill the emptiness... but I still wonder...

I only feel filth upon me...
What am I doing??...
I've lost myself in this insanity...
I'm going crazy...

I let the dark surround me by complete...
As the sound of his doing is in place...
As his tongue slides in and out of me...
I softly cry... empty tears streaming down my face...