Control Freak

At times you really do my head in
so frustrated I don't know where to begin
certain moods of yours I just can't stand
like how my attention you will command
it taps into my post traumatic stress
which in turn causes me great distress
anxiety hightens to an extreme peak
you shut me down every time that I speak
so controlling you won't let things go
around the house me you will follow
when all I want is a bit of space
you insist on being right in my face
I feel invalidated and resentment grows
and that's where in my behaviour it shows
as I bottle things up deep inside
I feel at times there is no comprimise
I try to tell you what's going on for me
but I end up listening to you very patiently
so my opinions are never really heard
to me you say “that's fucking abserd”
or if your being really considerate
your telling me that I'm a “bloody idiot”
you rant off a long list on how I fail
for hours you can go on in great detail
what I do and how it makes you feel
your pent up feelings you get to reveal
you point out to me is how lucky I am
telling me I won't find a better man
rarely do you admit if you get it wrong
infact you will stand even more strong
how do you deal with such arrogance
for me it brings on a bit of defiance
I never can seem to make you understand
that to me you always have the upperhand
even when I can tell your not thinking clear
you take me as I am not being sincere
not for a second do you consider what I say
in fact you tell me "No its the other way"
it must be your thinking that is bent
if I want to do anything I need your conscent
I Feel trapped  it makes me want to escape
it makes me angry in no way can you relate
so it keeps bubbling around inside of me
driving me to points of  near insanity
I don't want our relationship to fall apart
Please listen to me it's coming from my heart