Feel what I cant

Most days
I don't know what I'm feeling
So I write about the fake
In hope of some stealing

They ask what's wrong
When they read what I write
But truthfully I write what I should feel
Because my mind gave up the fight

It's as numb as my heart
Which is as numb as my fate
Yes, my fate is numb
Frozen with pain and hate

Tell me what the hell I'm supposed to feel
Because I don't know anymore
I'm emotionally "not there"
Because I'm empty from the core

Don't ask me what's wrong
How the hell should I know?
Yes, my body is here
But my mind stays and goes