give her time

The touch of an ice cold, razor sharp blade against my wrist.
As I cut deeper my body warms up, do there’s this this bone chilling feeling down my spine as if Satan himself is guiding my hand to slice through my wrist. My body’s becoming numb; I’m slipping in and out of consciousness, blood everywhere. The earth beneath me starts to shatter, cracks ripping through the earth in every direction. The eternal flames of hell seeping through the cracks.
The ground starts giving way till nothing is left accept a spire that holds up my lifeless body.
No memories of the past, only endless sorrow, pain & heartache of my failures in life.
As the last bit of life seeps out of my body I see this blinding light from above, a familiar figure, a gentle whisper of an all familiar voice begging me to hold on, asking me to only give her time & not throw our love away like this… she lifts my body on her lap, holds my hand in hers begging me to stay with her… she whispers in my ear that she’s always loved me but it just too complicated…
She gently kisses me on the forehead while tears streaming down her cheek onto me…
It seems with every tear that that touches me breathes new life in me…
As her tears fall it extinguishes the flames of hell, the ground starts to build back up & I realize that God has put her in my as my rock, my guardian Angel but most importantly as the love of my life