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tonight I smiled for the first time
in months
I felt the world fall
and feels so fake
and feels so hollow
I felt it all crumble
but it was fun
I smiled
touch of death
for the first time
in it seems like ages
felt all the tears slip to a darkening room
a face
can barely see
I felt it all come back
tonight I smiled for the first time
a fake smile
I felt so alive
the first time in forever I wasnt thinking
head pounding
remove pressure
Oh I feel like Im going to suffacate
the only thing I can do to smile
for the first time since I stopped
I smiled


(another old song I did stop doing this but I stop my substances like a preppy popular girl likes boys so yeah pray it wont happen again)

no offense to preppy popular boy liking girls its only a simile created out of boredom