To my step dad

We live in this house yet barely speak a word
I think it is absurd
Over a very long 13 years
There has been pain followed by tears

All the effort and energy believe me I have tried
To connect with him, when I realized it was a waste of time part of me died
I have been crushed to the bone
In my family room I often feel alone

For everything he as done for me
I just wanted to say thank you, but he can't see
He doesn't talk much at all
Which hurts as he has this brick wall

One of us in time will die
One will be on earth and the other up in the sky
Why couldn't we be friends?
The agony of this never ends

All the words he didn't say
With him they shall stay
All the baseball and football games we watched together
Even in silence, memories that will never sever

To form a relationship I gave my all
With out bracing for the fall
I know he cares about me
Even if I can't see this, I guess it wasn't meant to be

What my mother tells me is what I get in return
Closure not a single bit as my insides ache and burn
Another long and painful night
Thinking about many things with insight