let it end

Stop pulling at me
I will come back
And then?
you don't know what to do
with me
standing again before you
I am only an interlude
in your search to make your own history
leave me alone
and let me breathe
have we not caused enough destruction
angst
spiked silences
suspicious doubt in those we love
it will never be enough
not for ones like you and I
to sidestep each other delicately
and bow with our eyes to the floor
no
No!
we will want to sidle, undulate in thoughts before we lunge bite
rip
Blood each other
That is not the real of life and
I can't do that anymore (I write this with my hands shaking in need of that flame-licking power)
So obey the vow
I will turn my face when next I see you down the corridor
Grab for my cell-phone, anything not to meet your eyes
You, my enemy