Flutter Girl

I always write to this when i am feeling down. And I do feel down right now. I miss the flutter girl so much, she’s on my mind constantly in these days… When I watched titanic, Rose reminded me on Flutter Girl. I miss her so much, I love her so much. I’m keeping think of that I’m going to leave to Slovenia or something, just run off from this country, then I will visit this town in the future, where Flutter Girl will see me, will have me again, but that is so unreal. I want her to feel like how I felt when she moved away from me…
Just imagine that I’ve been here for three years now. I’m tired of being here, I wanna fly away from this place and not think about this shit. I hope I’ll take off from this area.
Flutter Girl have the best face I ever seen, she is so beautiful. So beautiful. I miss her so much.
I wanted to be with her in the rest of my life, but she’s gone, I never hear from her anymore.
I always get sad when I see happy people around me. Love is so lost from me, it doesn’t wanna get close to me, It doesn’t know who I am anymore. It ignores me, and it always gets scared of me when it sees me. I’m born just to see how everybody is doing; I am supposedly born to see happy people around me and get sad of it.
This town is the least town I wanna see in last five years. I don’t wanna get near by the town. It’s so Flutter Girl town, it reminds me of everything, that town.
I’m wondering how I have managed to survive last four years. Every single day, any movement I make can remind of her……
Yesterday I played poker with her boyfriends’ best friend. Earlier that day, I saw her brother… Every little tiny thing I do, can remind me of her, and it always come unexpectedly.