can you feel

feeling like i no longer matter,i guess it was just another lie.
knowing the misery you bring,still i welcome it with open arms.
embracing the hate you have for me,no i am not under your charms.
realizing now that the hurt has become my every day addiction.

how could you watch me suffer,see me crawl, dont you feel a thing.
begging for your sunshine,although i recieve just another cloud.
glimpses of a smile,cast upon my darkened brow,watch as i go deep.
again i play your fool again i am the outcast,standing apart.

get ready because your time is like a caged animal,set it loose.
the agony on your face crushes my emotions,numb to your hatred.
i have put on the mask of indifference,and it fits all so well.
behind it the world cannot see my bitter tears,the pain so real.

i shall leave you and go reside inside myself,dwell inside me.
the lonliness like a ghost haunts my every breath.
to be the dawn as it devours the night,the thing you feel but cannot grasp.
the sword that glistens in the star lit night,as it prepares to slice.