No where to Hide

never in life did I imagine
a time
a place
where I would be missing the very things from my life that I pictured having
I don't have
So I weep
Long nights and
hide my face
in the darkness
so no one can see these fresh tears that fall on my cheeks
and down onto my pillow case
I slide into a recollection of nostalgia
and face the very things I feared one day I would have to face
Dreaming of the very things that I could have had
Insisting it can still happen
A brisk brush on my shoulders, others doubts fall to the ground
Opening the curtains and drying my tears I see the sunlight
if only I could grab the sun's energy
install it inside my heart
Smile at the thought
Wandering as I stare unto the sunrise
Where will I go
I can't hide forever