What's the point of a first love?

I used to spend my days
Looking for love
Longing and searching
For something
I knew nothing about

And then I realized
I wasn’t ready for it
If I don’t know
Who I am
Any relationship is hopeless

I’m getting closer
To where I want to be
I’m determined to find out
The person
I was meant to be

The truth is I’m scared
I fear love
I think it’s because
I don’t
Want to be hurt

I don’t want to hurt anyone
I don’t want the end to come
Though I know it’s ahead
They say
The first never lasts

If I really cared
For a special someone
I wouldn’t want them to be
My first
Because it wouldn’t last