not pretty

I feel fat.
When I look in the mirror I feel ugly.
I hate being so subs conscience.
There are days when I feel pretty,
But today is not one of those days.
I feel like I need to skip meals.
Food is my enemy.
I want to be thin not average.
I hate myself right now,
But that doesn’t mean I’ll hate myself tomorrow.
I feel like I’m going to hurt myself.
I feel like I’m going to over exercise.
I want to lose weight.

I know people tell me I’m pretty.
I also know people tell me I have an amazing body.
You see, for me at times this is hard to believe.
Don’t get me wrong, there are times when I feel pretty.
Right now though is not one of those times.
Do you think I’m pretty?
Do you think I have an amazing body?
I don’t know anymore.
I don’t know what to do anymore.
I feel like a disappointment.
I want to feel pretty on the inside and outside.