In My Shoes

I want him to go through everything he put us through. I want him to cry himself to sleep every night and be scared to be alone, without your mom or friends to help you, just in case his dad had one too many. And I want him to be hit everyday and threatened that he will be killed or broken or worse. I want him to be given away to a family who would let all of this happen just because he was a different child when he was younger. I want him to feel as unloved as I did. I want him to feel all the pain of everything that happened to me when I was beaten and molested or when I had to run away just so that wouldn't happen. I want him to feel so scared to fall asleep, wondering if he would see something scary. I want him to be scared to keep living. I want him to be so scared to live that I want him to murder himself in the most painful way possible.